OUTLINE:

• [x] daeng teasing
• [x] getting ready together
• [x] doing daeyoung’s hair
• [x] more teasing?
• [x] something about yushi kicking the smoking habit when he’s anxious
• [x] driving to venue. passenger princess vs driver
• [x] meeting onri some nervous things idk
• [x] yushi coming out to dy
  • [x] i broke up with my girlfriend. she didnt want me to be a boy.
  • [x] there is something in daeyoung’s eyes that twinkles and it’s something yushi cannot give a name to- refuses to give a name to. half out of fear.
    • [x] of course i support you, noona. or- do you want me to call you hyung?
    • [x] it’s one thing for sion to be a noona but it’s something else to be a hyung. for a boy like daeyoung to see him as another boy. a man. right, he’s not a boy, he’s a man. he’s not a girl. he’s a man.
  • [x] idk maybe talking about family…
  • [x] daeyoung offers him a hug and for once, yushi indulges him. daeyoung is so tall and warm. he’s such a good kid. one day he’ll be a really great guy
    • [x] thank you, daeyoung-ah
    • [x] daeyoung’s voice is tight with something unnameable. his heart is beating so fast - even like this he likes him. yushi doesnt like him back. but someone likes him and that means something.
    • [x] you’re welcome, hyung.
• [x] hard cut to reception and they are like just talking. a little nervous. a lot of people have their eyes on them
  • [x] daeng and her mom are no contact and shes not here but other family members have tried to start shit
  • [x] yushi: if you tell sion, i’ll-
  • [x] daeng: unnie has enough on her plate. it’s okay
• [x] out in the smoking section. he used to crave the smell but nowadays he just cares about daeyoung’s smile. and she used to frown whenever he smoked.
• [x] insecure daeng? yushi suggests dancing. or we can leave, sion wont care.
  • [x] no, oppa, dancing sounds good
• [x] daeyoung comes out to yushi
  • [x] it’s a weekday night at 3 am and onri are on the couch. yushi is doing what he’s always doing - chainsmoking. daeyoung calls him first, for some reason.
  • [x] hyung. theres something i need to tell you that ive never told anyone else.
  • [x] im on my way. hyung’s on his way.
  • [x] daeyoung is a wreck. sobbing. yushi’s never seen him sob except for the time they put down his childhood dog and it took dozens of chocopies to cheer him up
    • [x] there are… huh. daeyoung has something on his face. makeup. theres a dress on the bed.
    • [x] yushi assumes he has a gf and they broke up…?
  • [x] hyung, daeyoung says. i cant do it anymore. i dont want to be a man.
  • [x] it takes yushi a minute to register it because daeyoung is… daeyoung. so boyish it hurts. but there were signs, weren’t there?
  • [x] oh, yushi says. oh, daeyoung-ah, i see. it’s okay.
  • [x] daeyoung’s been bigger than him a good chunk of their lives, which is funny, because he’s so much younger. but when they hug he goes small. meek. women are not meek but daeyoung is- does he-
    • [x] i want to be pretty, daeyoung says. i want to be pretty and i want people to see me like im pretty.
    • [x] yushi doesnt know what to say. he was growing his hair out, just to the nape, but then his mom told him to cut it. and he did.
    • [x] you can be pretty no matter what you are, yushi says.
    • [x] no. daeyoung’s voice is shaking but he sounds firm. i want to be pretty like a girl.
  • [x] they talk. their experiences overlap in some ways and clash in others. daeyoung realized even younger than yushi did. but he- she - pretended otherwise.
    • [x] girls ask me out because they think im handsome, hyung. they-
    • [x] you dont have to call me hyung. id be your… yushi breathes. your oppa.
    • [x] daeyoung blushes. squirms. okay. okay, yeah.
    • [x] it’s something devious out of his mouth even as they talk about such difficult things. this was a few years before yushi had ever been attracted to daeyoung. a few years before he saw daeyoung as a peer and not a dongsaeng. but there was something strange stirring in his guts. not a yearning, but a longing. here is where we are the same. i have never met someone who feels the way i do.
    • [x] yushi was pretty bad at being a girl but he can try. he helps daeyoung wash her face and put on makeup. shaky hands. oppa, your hands are so steady.
      • [x] youll learn, daeyoungie. yours will be steady too.
      • [x] daeyoung hasnt been sion’s little brother in a long time - she’s been yushi’s friend for a while - but this is different.
    • [x] youll help me tell n- unnie? daeyoung asks with wide eyes. makeup looks good on her. accentuates her features.
    • [x] of course, yushi says. of course. oppa will help you with anything.
    • [x] it’s not quite like how it was when sion sat with yushi in the dark of his teenage bedroom and told him she was his noona, but it’s something close. daeyoung digs her head into yushi’s shoulder and he doesn’t even care that she’s getting mascara on his shirt.
      • [x] you do so much for me. thank you.
      • [x] yushi swallows, hard, down something unnameable. and all he says is: you’re welcome.
• [x] tipsy dancing and teasing and just trans love man idk
  • [x] onri come in. sion pulls yushi aside. is daeyoungie okay?
  • [x] yushi doesnt take a side. you know her. shes resilient.
  • [x] sion is DRUNK. kisses yushi on the cheek. i love you please love muy sister forever
    • [x] yushi embarrassed. daeng notices? some teasing?
    • [x] transition here
• [x] the first time they have sex
  • [x] yushi was renting out the studio by the time they started dating. it was decorated more sparsely back then - needed a woman’s touch, as sion used to say.
  • [x] daeyoung was too tall. her feet dangled off the bed. yushi had a twin, back then, and yet daeyoung still insisted on sharing.
  • [x] it smells like you. smells nice.
  • [x] yushi blushes. it’s been so long since he’s had a girl in his bed, let alone one as gorgeous as kim daeyoung.
  • [x] It’s silly. The affection is something they approached so slowly. So slowly it’d kill most men, but Yushi is far from most men. They mostly just kiss. Yushi gave her a handjob, once. Today they went out to a nice place for dinner and got pleasantly tipsy and on the subway ride back home Daeyoung said: oppa, can you please fuck me when we get home. It wasn’t really a question. So here they are.
    • [x] Wanna get undressed? Yushi offers. Daeyoung’s in a dress - it’s early autumn and she was shivering on the way back home. He gave her his cardigan.
    • [x] That’s so presumptuous, oppa, Daeyoung blushes something fierce. You just wanna see me naked.
    • [x] Yushi huffed. Then you can go have fun by yourself and-
    • [x] Daeyoung laces their fingers together and pouts. I’m joking. But you have to get naked with me. And so he does.
  • [x] Yushi is far from a virgin but he’s shaking when he undoes his belt, for some reason. Daeyoung told him before she’s only ever topped. She was so shy. I’m practicing, oppa, for when we do it. Tonight he might die.
  • [x] They both are undressed relatively quickly. Daeyoung is beautiful against his sheets, still tanned from the summer and demure. A year or two on estrogen, starting to curve subtly in some select places. Places Yushi wanted to bite her.
  • [x] “You’re so pretty,” Yushi says like a man possessed. He stands over her and looks, unblinking, at the way her ears go red.
  • [x] “Don’t be a weirdo,” she looks away. Come here and kiss me. Which he does.
  • [x] Foreplay
    • [x] Kissing is easy, familiar, Daeyoung is so good for him. Opens up so easily. Like she’s hungry for him.
    • [x] Yushi’s been getting used to the whole having-a-penis thing but he’s starting to enjoy the way she whimpers when he tugs at her. When he squeezes. She whines a cute, delicate sound.
    • [x] Could open you up on my fingers, Yushi murmurs into her mouth. You’d be so good for it, wouldn’t you.
    • [x] Daeyoung’s eyes shine. I am, she promises. For you, oppa, I am.
    • [x] Yushi opens her up. She takes him well, moaning. He’s seen the toys she has at home. They’re not very big. They went out a month ago to buy a strap together and Daeyoung chose the one they’re gonna use tonight - it’s not very sizeable but it’ll hit her sweet spot and that’s what matters. She took it home once, to test it. Returned it to Yushi with a red face. This one’ll do.
  • [x] Yushi’s fucked people with his strap, even in the ass, but this is different. This is Daeyoung. There is no other Daeyoung in the world and he wants it to make her feel good.
    • [x] Daeyoung takes it, moaning, moaning so loud he has to muffle her. She’s on her stomach. It’s not a good position but she wants to hide her face.
    • [x] You’re so good, Daeyoungie. Moan for oppa more.
    • [x] Yushi didnt think he’d be into the whole oppa thing but he’s sorely wrong because she cries for him. Oppa, oppa. It feels- it feels good.
    • [x] You like it?
    • [x] Daeyoung sniffles when he hits her prostate, choking on a whine. I love it. Please, I love it when you’re in me.
    • [x] The sex isn’t anything too rough but Yushi has a little too much fun teasing her and it’s awful that she’s so reactive to him. Whines so loud when he praises her. Good girl, look at you, you’re perfect.
      • [x] Wanna be perfect for you, Daeyoung moans into his pillow. Moans louder when he tugs at her cock. Oppa, I’m- I’m yours.
      • [x] Yushi groans. Leans down to bite at her neck, shove her down into the sheets. My Daeyoungie, he says. Perfect girl. You’re so good.
      • [x] And Daeyoung comes. She’s amazing.
  • [x] They lie in the aftermath. There is no “I love you’s”. But Daeyoung snuggles into him like an oversized pillow in Yushi’s stupidly tiny twin bed and she looks so fucking happy. Oppa, she says. You’re really my favorite.
  • [x] Yushi doesn’t even need to say anything back because Daeyoung knows how he feels, knows he feels the same. So he kisses her on the forehead. Kisses her on the mouth. Kisses her on her pulse point, where he left a mark with his teeth the day before.
  • [x] Daeyoung, he says. Thank you. And that’s enough.
• [x] car sex
  • [x] heavy petting, making out, daeng is on yushi’s lap
    • [x] im not too big, am i?
    • [x] no, baby, come here. youre so pretty. let me kiss you.
  • [x] daeyoung’s makeup disheveled aigoo. riding thigh. praiseeeeeeeee
    • [x] good girl. god, youre beautiful. daeyoung-ah, does it feel good?
    • [x] oppa. oppa. please. please.
    • [x] yushi being dom is gender affirming in that before they were so performative in their roles and it’s wonderful that daeyoung is comfortable like this, needy and cute and whining
      • [x] oppa. oppa, i want you to-
      • [x] anything you want, daeyoung
    • [x] yushi preps her. eats her out? probably not. jerks her off in a rlly mean way
      • [x] daeyoung is soooo whiny. please. oppa, please. dont be mean.
      • [x] yushi grins. im never mean to you, baby
      • [x] daeyoung wails. youre so mean to me.
    • [x] daeyoung petting at yushi’s packer. wanting to suck him off. SUCKING THE STRAPPPPPPPPPP
    • [x] they fuck idk
    • [x] SPIT KINK
    • [x] idk daeyoung comes. yushi is soooo pleased
      • [x] yuchi doesnt wanna get off, dysphoria maybe. later. just care about you
      • [x] daeyoung is all pouty., okay. fine. whatever.
        • [x] sorry, daeyoungie, youre just cute. oppa’s sorry for being mean.
        • [x] it’s okay. youre nice to me.
        • [x] i dont think thats true.
        • [x] it is !
          • [x] bath time
          • [x] yushi plays with daeyoungie’s hair. braids it for her. he doesnt say i love you and he doesnt have to.
            • [x] a wedding…. howd you feel about something like that?
            • [x] wedding/marriage talk but nothing definitite. maybe some legal stuff.
            • [x] daeyoung pulls yushi in for a kiss. did you know i love you.
            • [x] yushi grins. i had a feeling you might.

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